*sigh* ANOTHER Coog loss

Well, The game did not go well. I cheered my little red and white heart out, I sang the school song, I chanted the proper words and nope. We still didn't win. Four out of the five last years we've gone to bowl games, we are 0-4. We haven't won a bowl game since 1980. *sigh*

How could we lose? We basically had a home game, thousands of people there wearing red and white. I really thought we were going to pull it out in the end. But we didn't.

I'm proud of dh though, he's doing well, he was more optomistic and handled the loss better than me. Silly hugh? It's only because I care, but now I'm invested in this school that I never went to, but I feel like I am a part of it through dh and actually through alot of my students.

Many of them are enrolled there and in my school. It's a school of hardworking, mostly commuter students. An incredibly diverse student body (39% white, 19% asian, 18% hispanic, 13% african american). Many are first generation college students. It's hard to keep on campus traditions alive when you have so many people commuting. Thats why I've found it's important to go to the games and support the teams. Anyway, I just wish the football team could catch a break. I wish we would just win. It breaks my heart. I almost wish I didn't care so much. :(

Go Coogs!

We love you anyway.

Better luck next year.

Addition to previous post

First of all, sorry for the paranthesis issues going on in my previous post, it was late and I was (am) tired.

Also, the brickle candy, I like it much more this morning, in fact it's kinda crack like, though I think I'll play around with the recipe. I like the toffee part much more than the chocolate part, and it would be much better with cashew or peanuts. I used pecan pieces, I didn't have anything else and I sure as hell wasn't going to the store AGAIN, Dh would have killed me, I would have killed me. I'm going to experiment with the recipe a bit. I think make it more of a toffee/nut few chocolate chips thing.

Here's the recipe so you have some clue what in God's name I'm talking about. Oh yeah and I need to get my butt moving, supposedly I"m leaving for my parents house in 35 minutes. Ha! I haven't even showered yet. Ok bye everyone!

Club Crackers
1 cup butter
1 cup brown sugar
Chocolate chips
Nuts (cashews or peanuts)

Place aluminum foil on a cookie sheet and spray with non stick spray.
lay out club crackers forming a sheet of crackers on the cookie sheet.
On stove melt butter and brown sugar and keep stirring until it thickens and most all liquid is absorbed.(about 5 minutes) Pour crack liquid (hee hee) over crackers covering all crackers, then put cookie sheet in 400 oven for 5-8 minutes. Remove sheet from oven, sprinkle liberally with chocolate chips, then with nuts covering the sheet with chocolate and nuts (I'm thinking of reducing the chocolate part significantly). Then place cookie sheet in freezer for at least 2 hours. Remove from freezer, let stand overnight and then break into pieces and become diabetic instantly and gain a jillion pounds. Can be stored in an airtight container so it looks like you won't eat it all in one day.

Have fun!
Fox

I love Bakers Joy* and I'm tired of sugar (sort of)

Ok here I sit at 1:05 am again.I've been up past midnight at least 3 nights this week. First furiously working on handmade Christmas cards (Don't worry if you didn't get one (and you actually know me personally) You'll get a New Years Card). Then wrapping all our gifts for everyone except the ones for me and Dh's secret santa on my side of the family at least he did those, though begrudgingly. Then, today well today I was insane here is the rundown:

Woke up 8 am (after going to bed at 2 am)
First thought: Crap, I'm already late for the grocery store, everyone will already be there!
8:45 - get to grocery store for last minute holiday cooking/baking ingredients
9:30 - get home unload groceries, then for some ungodly reason felt the need to straighten and sweep before I begin my marathon day of baking.
10:15 am - get out list of cookies/pie etc to make, all ingredients and tools (seriously I had it all out for easy access, made the process go so much easier
List: Santa's Whiskers (all time favorite), Orange Cranberry swirls (too much damn work, Sugar cookies (ok I cheated used the pillsbury kind), Orange shortbread (love these, they've become a staple Christmas item, Macaroons (these were a spur of the moment addition), 1 and half apple pies (I had too many apples already peeled and cut so I made a smaller pie/tart, and Brickle candy (new recipe, not too fond of it, too sweet). Oh and 2 pans of jiffy cornbread for the stuffing/dressing I'm making tomorrow.

WTF was I thinking? Someone please tell me. *sigh*

10:30 am turn on oven to preheat.

The damn thing did not get turned off until 10:30 pm.

Yup thats right. 12 HOURS STRAIGHT that oven was on. My electric bill is going to be through the effing roof. I did take the occasional break, I went to Quizno's to pick up sandwiches and the store one last time (I needed more eggs, turns out I didn't after all, don't tell Dh). Then I also took a break and ate dinner. Oh yeah and I did 3 loads of laundry. None of them are folded or put away, but by God, the clothes is clean even if it is a little wrinkled.

OH and I cleaned all the the dishes etc from said baking marathon.

Then wrapped the last of Dh's presents, a few other ones, loaded the car with the gifts, cut the bread for the stuffing, laid out the items I will have to take with me tomorrow, made alist of items I need to take with me so I don't forget anything.

Never in my life have I been so fricken domestic. And I don't even have kids that I"m doing this for, but now that I think about it, I could do it because I DON'T have kids. When I have kids I think I'll be lucky if I can squeeze some cookies out of a tube. Oh well anyway I think it's time to go to bed. I'm getting crosseyed and loopy. I am exhausted. I would like to enjoy this Christmas that I've worked so hard on. *sigh*

Merry Christmas, and God Bless us everyone.

Redfox

*Bakers Joy is an incredible product that is a nonstick spray but also puts a super fine layer of flour on the baking pan, and works at high temperatures. It has changed my life forever.

Thoughts on the 32 year mark

Well, I've been 32 for 24 hours now and to be honest, it does kinda feel different. I've noticed various differences in the last year or so, like when I cry at night, the next morning my face looks like a puffy, wrinkled mess. WTH?! That has never happened before. I look more tired than I have in the past, my skin is starting to look different, less firm. I have more gray hair than I ever imagined at this age (at least they are in a spot that is somewhat easily hidden)More joints creak when I go up the stairs (though this has greatly improved with yoga gotta keep up with that)I guess what I'm trying to say is I have finally noticed that I am physically aging. It's more weird than distressing. Well Ok, thats a lie, its mightily distressing. I guess I'll have to use those collagen containing, firming, antiwrinkle, alphahydroxy, nutraceutical blah, blah, blah lotions. My mom always told me to use lotion, I never did. Now I kinda wish I had, but just kinda.

On the other hand at 32 I have been in the career of my dreams for 5 years! I've been married to my sweet adoring husband for 3 years. All of my family is finally in the same (albeit) large state with most of them within a 40 minute drive. My parents are both alive, healthy and very active. I have cutie patootie nieces and nephews that love me tons!! :) I have friends who love me and think enough of me to mark my special day with celebration. :) I am blessed enough to be healthy and whole, and while having trouble conceiving, I am again blessed enough to have the means to do something about it. There are days when I am consumed with problems, but those are far fewer than the days I am consumed with laughter.

Of my 11,681 days on this earth, I have been blessed on each and every one.

Absolutely!

Sweet hubby

You know I love it when my dh surprises me with some super random act of sweetness.
Like tonight, I got home late and I could tell on the phone he was annoyed that I was leaving work and hour later than I had told him I would be leaving, the previous time was still later than usual, so now I was even more late than I had anticipated being late. Anyway, I get home and start with some easy dinner and we finally sit down to eat and what has he recorded on the DVR for me? Charlie Brown Christmas!! My very favorite-est Christmas special of them all! He knows how much I love that Christmas special and I know just how much he doesn't like it. He doesn't hate it per se but, he does not look forward to watching it. So anyway, he says "I knew you would want to see it and when I recorded it the other day I missed 15 minutes of it. It's on a different channel and I got it from the beginning." I then proceed to look at my dh and my eyes got a little misty. It was one of those moments that let me know he was thinking of me and I love those moments.

Sometimes he makes me want to pull my hair out, and sometimes he makes me want to dance around all funny like. Then sometimes he just makes me feel loved. I like that the best. :)

Thanks dh.


PS. We actually had another moment this weekend, we went to the mall yesterday just to get out a bit (ok kinda stupid move, its holiday season and we went to THE MALL.) Anyway, we're walking around, going into a few stores etc. and he reminds me that we need to hold on till the 12th cause of the budget blah, blah, blah. Then we walk into the Hallmark store and I check to see what pieces have been added to my Nativity set. I love my Nativity set, it's one of my favorite parts of Christmas. I have the Willowtree Nativity set, I had wanted it since the first time I saw it in 2000, and finally two years ago I got it. It will be our Nativity set till the day I die. Anywho, The Ox and Goat are the only pieces I don't have. My dh then looks at me and says "Go ahead, get the ox and goat." I look at him, he smiles and says again "well go ahead, get the ox and goat." I smiled really big and kissed him. I've never loved my husband and farm animals more.